goodbye

[dispell]

i hope yall will understand by the time your done reading this. ill just start from the beginning. i use to love playing ffxi.. it was a great way to avoid my friends that are a bad influence. also help me escape my irl problems without having to use drugs or alcohol. i could actually sleep again at night. eventually i let ffxi become an addiction though... i lost all my irl friends, i stopped talking for 2years, and etc. only people i would talk to was my irl ex bf (the love of my life Matt..that broke my heart so now i dont date.) and ffxi friends. After losing both.. every time i get on ffxi. i cant help but cry. every piece of gear i look at reminds me of him or old friends. For a year now.. ive thought about quitting but couldnt leave my new friends (Eden ). but i cant do it any more. ive lost so much from this game.. it only makes me emo too. i got kicked out from my moms place in cali so i moved in with my dad in idaho.it was either i go or moms bf go.. so i had to go .i have nothing now.. only thing i have is a 2nd chance to make my shitty life into a good one. ive been depressed since i was 10 years old.. ive been threw a lot.i want to have a normal teenager life, get my degree in RN then later go back to school to become a doctor, start a family.i have many goals. every time i play ffxi i feel like ill never reach any of these goals. i even started getting nightmares again. i hope yall understand. please keep in touch.. i cant lose any more friends. im very caring.. i care about all of you.

msn: ladyracer3@hotmail.com
aim: colzpeepz
facebook: colleen peoples
text: 510-491-5744
www.myspace.com/colzpeepz

PS
NO- im not giving you my stuff. gwenoth (my sister) gave me account after she quit.. then i made dispell. so im giving it back to her.
NO- cant change my mind about quitting. ive thought about this for over a year. it wont be something ill regret.

[Tomiko]

Bye.

[ItsSeflol]

Backstory?

[Ploid]

Congratulations, making a great step at a brighter future. I always say these games are for retired people, it sucks so much time out of you. With the way the internet is these days, you'll never have to miss friends that you can't stand to leave in FFXI. Just chat with them once in a while on a instant messenger or something. I use Eden forums, although they stopped chatting on here (I don't like instant messengers, and I dare not trust internet people with my personal information). Now get your sister to quit before she get's sucked in too.

[Bodycount]

You're better off not playing, trust me ;o

[Mertron]

:/

[dispell]

i dont know how often she will play because she has a baby and hubby so

[Lolmy]

cu

Good luck getting your life back together and such

[Yorke]

gl with everything :<

Please don't be a stranger. You were always super cool, so I hope everything straightens out for you. I'll see you on Facebook and stuff~

Again, hope all goes well for you and you will definitely be missed.

[Blaize]

>:

cu disp ;-;

[Lutia]

<3

[Seiriem]

I'll see you on Facebook and stuff~

Take care, and gl in RL ^^

[Maimed]

hi, bai!

one less person from 510 to represent... nothin but italians on ffxi nowadays

[Kooyo]

its cuz i left u in eden alone isnt it?!


i'd cum back for u dissy

[Sureaboutthis]

:/ cya

also i added u on msn