Is perhaps what Mert would say when he finds out that I've decided to quit the ls. To some this is a "finally", some "omg nooo", to others, "Who the fk are you".
Point is I've been thinking about it for a while. We lost a lot of people, the longer standing folks and the ones I liked, to WoW. Took the LS a long time to recover, and I see that now the LS is doing that. But unfortunately, I just don't have the time or will power to stay around. Couple of things forced my decision to do this this weekend, and selfish as they may sound, tis how I feel, after all I am paying to play this game...
In March, I started Fishing, and I've really gotten into it. Quiet time, something to do, and an awesome way to make money. I play the game lately for 3 things; Salvage, Fishing, and random interaction with you guys; the latter I fill with Dynamis and Einherjar. The "pointless arguement" that I made last night during Dynamis [where Dionious lotted something, but wasn't in the shell, and only did Dynamis with us and nothing else but could still lot (eventhough no one wanted it, I get it, but if someone had...)] made me realise that if I have the Eden pearl, I'm expected to attend the Kings and BCNMs and Sky and Sea and blahblahblah which I've just lost complete and utter interest in, not to mention that over the last few months those activities have been waning (but picking back up again, I get it...), however like Dionious, without it I can do the activities that I like and not the ones I do not. Kny's right, Dyna is the only thing I do with Eden because it's the only thing I enjoy. What's the point of doing anything in life for recreational purposes if you aren't enjoying it. Saturday I logged on after god knows how many days working, had this huge list of things I wanted to do, saw that Fafnir was coming and then KS99s, realised that I couldn't do any of the shit I wanted to, and instead of just ignoring either my shit or the LS's shit, I logged off. I then proceeded to fall asleep and get a soaring headache and didn't have sex with my GF! I mean, srsly.
Basically, End-game doesn't appeal to me anymore, and it's actually hindering what I want to do since my playstyle has changed. I no longer have the will, the want or the desire to do it outside of the events I enjoy doing - I'd do Limbus if it weren't for the perpetual Apollyon that was every single run too. In 2 weeks time, My GF finishes University and is coming home, so my playtime will be even lessened as I will want to spend a majority of it with her, and I don't want to log on for the sake of keeping up appearances so that you guys can bad mouth me when I'm not around doing my own thing at events. I want to log on to do a bit here or there, randomly afk without caring, and go back to stuff when I'm ready. Furthermore, in September I start University and have told our Salvage group that I don't think I'll be able to stay up until 4am during the week because of my schooling, so there's a likelihood that I'll end up either quitting Salvage or just stop playing completely.
So yeah. I'm not joining TG or ED or LP or TDG or whoever's at camps at the moment. I'll still do Dynamis if you guys want. If not, then it's no problem, I understand and will find another group perhaps. Lutia, keep me access to Salvage forums >o
Cu 'round.
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