YOU WIN
Posted: Tue May 22, 2007 4:28 am
Well, here it is in General Forum, since someone removed my membership status from being able to see the HNM Section, I guess that was a bit presumptive but not at all unexpected from children.
(To all you who are new to this, this post here is response to the at last i saw seven pages of bile and lies posted by Knyghtmayre in the members-only HNM section).
Mertron, we may not see eye-to-eye on a lot of things, including Limbus (which i will go into great detail below) but you will forever have my respect as one of the most upstanding and fair people I have met on this game. You may not even like me, but what you did today was one of the kindest things anyone has done for me.
To every other sackholder and Eudon included, if you stood by and watched this abuse, without stopping the abusers in the name of 'expressing an opinion' you are truly sick, sick people.
Scorsese said on Sunday that those who stay in WCW were like battered wives in an abusive relationship. He is wrong. THIS relationship has been the most abusive thing i can think of. I stayed in this shell forever thinking it would stop, that it could be repaired. When Max left and he kept telling me "come on, they won't change. It won't get better." Well I have to admit now, he is right.
I may never see a dalmatica in FFXI and I tell you it is worth it. Shoto is right, this isn't the real Eden. Eden died a long time ago. I loved this shell. I still love the memory of it. But this infestation of evil is not Eden.
You want to allow members to abuse each other openly? To call people whores? You want a sack who doesn't play the game but only comes back out of his delight in belittling people.
I paid for Knyghtmayre to play this game from February 2006 until December 2006 because i took pity on a 16-year-old kid who couldnt get a credit card and whose only source of real entertainment came from this game. During that time I withstood harassment on the LS from him often. In April of 2006, I told him to remove his account from my credit card. He did not do so. I should be more careful with my finances, but for a long time I did not realize he had kept his account on my card. In November, when I thought Knyghtmayre was at his height of being the juvenile prick he is to me and my friends on the LS, I called SE and told them to cancel the account subscription. Nothing would happen to his account, just he would have to re-subscribe. Little did I know SE offers some weird resubscribe button when this happens and Kny just merrily clicked to resubscribe and have me continue to pay for his account, without talking to me or asking me. I then called and cancelled my credit card so there was no way he could do it again. He was gone for a while but has now conned Safer into paying for him.
To all the people in the shell, I didn't get to know or won't be able to help get your gear, I am very very sorry you had to witness this. I am especially sorry to Risbyn and Bodycount, to Maelicia and Sukasaroth, to Jheeb and Keli. Several new people seemed very nice and I know with my play times or the projects that i was busy with that I may have seemed standoffish, that is regrettable. I am not worried about the opinions of those who know the real me.
But I have several points to make:
1) The thing is Knyghtmayre would actually have to come to KV or a 5 am Cerb or an 8 am Fafnir to see me there. Mert knows I am there, Juvant knows I am there. Take a look down the HNM section. Find the 14-man fafnir.. the 12-man cerb screenshots, look at the party list. And yes, I was at EVERY KV but one.
2) I don't care if I ever get a cerb mantle. Yeah it's on my list, jesus, people put down Ninurta sashes... But I go to Cerb because I am a good god-damn stunner and I do my job well. I don't make excuses about lag, or my connection. I get the damn job done. I even claimed Cerb on Ony for this linkshell not giving a fuck who gets the mantle. The only time I ever questioned who might get a hide was when I saw a brand new member, maybe a week in the shell lot the hide off a kill. I asked Mert, "is he supposed to get that?" And the answer was, yes. Cool.
3) I logged off right after the aspid the other day AND today because I had and extreme amount of work backing up and simply could not stay online longer. You all know i am PST... It is not easy for me to make time out of the day to get online and play. I apologize if it appeared I did not care or did not want to help with another mob, but I need a paycheck, because I, Knyghtmayre, pay my own bills.
4) I wanted an altruistic cape. I can only attend sea on Saturdays, which I did EVERY Saturday, even when Turtle might've popped as I did last Saturday. You do the math on the likelihood that we would farm IxDark on a Saturday, the likelihood that it would pop and the likelihood that it would drop a vice AND THEN the likelihood I would be able to lot high enough to get it. So yes, I camped it on my own time with some friends. The bonus is EDEN WOULD GET ALL THE DEEDS AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MY CAPE!! Give your next cape to the person you want to have it. Seriously only in the land of Eden paranoia would farming your own fucking items and NOT leeching off the LS be considered damaging to the shell.
5) MERT - I'm not sure where you get this idea that I or others think your limbus is poorly run, unless it's from some comment someone said 6 months ago. People have different opinions on how best to get things done. I figure you guys want to do your limbus your way. You have different priorities. We have not at this time attempted Ultima and have very little desire to do so, therefore we are able to get by with far fewer people. Sometimes we don't understand why you take 15 people into an apollyon zone. I don't know, I figure you have your reasons. Run your limbus how you want.
6) The MAIN reason we had a separate limbus is BECAUSE I AM PACIFIC TIME. In general you go in before I get home on Tuesdays. It is very difficult as I mentioned above for me to attend and I think it is unfair to say to someone "oh well only come half time, but we will dock you because you aren't here all the time." So that, combined with the "we are full, go farm on your own" statements that were made as Mert correctly pointed out, we went on our own and farmed. Why are you bitching at me about coming to a fucking limbus I can't even attend half of the time?? Likewise, many of the members who have come to our limbus have said they are not able to make yours, for whatever reason. I don't know if they are telling the truth or not, that's up to them.
7) When the original rub of limbus came up, Maximilianbob suggested that Eden not go in runs of 18 and that the shell do small farming groups. That idea was turned down by LS leaders at the time. Max had fundamental differences of opinion with a few LS leaders and opted to leave. My limbus shell does very, very small runs built in a large part on Max's ideas. Last Wednesday, we farmed 2 zones with 10 people and collected 103 coins and 2 Omega chips. I am sure Eden can do the same.
Stop this bullshit about our homam being freelotted: Who has homam pieces from our group? Shotokan has nearly full homam for his 75 Thief. Sukasaroth has pants for his 75 Dark. Tetrabond has 3 pieces for his 75 Blue. Darkdreamer, a key tank in Eden who is now leveling Paladin, has two very common homam pieces in storage waiting for him (head and feet I think). I, who intend to level thief, have one piece, the most common piece, the homam head. ALL OF THESE PEOPLE ARE/WERE EDEN. ALL OF WHAT WE DO BENEFITS EDEN. If the people above I mentioned are no longer in Eden, well it's because you drove them out.
9) Now why would Darkdreamer or myself even be lotting homam? Here is the reason: My small limbus cannot bully or guilt mages or anyone else to come to limbus. We cannot rely on "you have to." We have to rely on setting up a system in which they WANT to come to limbus, because it benefits them. So we came up with a plan in which you could EARN homam lotting rights, regardless of job, based on your level of contribution to the shell AND if you weren't interested in homam at all, we offer "a coin bonus" as an incentive to come. I don't care if you waltz into my shell tomorrow with DRK/DRG/THF/PLD all at 75 ... YOU EARN YOUR SHIT ... NOBODY works harder for that limbus shell than me. I have passed legs twice and body once because, yes, it is much more beneficial for those who can wear it to have it.
10) I do not hesitate to say that I beleive all the Eden members who have jobs that can wear homam right now in our shell are happy; happy with our rules because you know EXACTLY where you stand. I tell them constantly, if they are unhappy with the rules and want to go to another limbus, if they want to go with Eden, please go. I will never allow anyone to talk bad about them. To me, which limbus they attend is a personal choice about what they feel best fits them. I can't guilt them. I can't tell them they can't leave. They CHOOSE to stay. So if our EDEN members are happy... Why are you all pissed off? You're mad because I have a homam head? You must waste those every time you do an Omega.
11) NO other LS: Cog, LP, ED has only one Limbus shell or only on Salvage shell and then bitches at each other FOR GETTING GEAR FOR PEOPLE IN THE SAME DAMN SHELL. This whole discussion is retarded. ED has 2 groups and of course their members can go with outside groups. LP has 2 groups and 3 or 4 members who run their own shells. COG has at least one group but some of its members go with random other shells.
12) Why is it that you always bitched about me and Shoto in limbus? Keli and MrDude have a separate limbus linkshell they run. Why aren't you screaming and stomping about them? Ghil as well is long known as having his own limbus shell. Their shells give homam to people NOT EVEN IN EDEN!!! I work my ass off so people IN EDEN can have homam all the while passing gear I have earned far more than any one else and I am still called a bitch? I am called a whore? I am still treated to this behavior by a 16-year-old. Fuck you.
13) To the allegation that I stopped camping Tiamat when Tet got his gaiters: I have camped more gaiters for people in this shell than you, Knyghtmayre. I still have my mule stationed there and frankly only Mert, Shoto and DragonKeeper have been seen in chasm camping since Tet got his gaiters. If you think I had some great personal investment in getting Tet gaiters, you are crazy. I really, personally, could care less if Tet runs faster or not. But we do these things: camp kings, camp wyrms for the shell, REGARDLESS of favoritism ... or at least SOME of us did.
14) I would have LOVED to come to your salvage but I am an outcast, someone to be spit on by knyghtmayre and talked down to by Aemora. I asked on forums for access or a place to sign up but was told 'just show up'... then you held these things during WCW or at 3 PM PACIFIC. I am sorry, I cannot attend then. I get home to see 18 people in Bhaflau Remnants, but yet I am a bitch because I can't attend.
I guess it matters not now. I am sorry I don't have the class that Shoto has anymore to turn my cheek. The thing is, his resignation is heart-breaking to me. If only any of you... Eudon, Mira, Mertron, Juvant... knew how much Shoto loved this shell. He went out of his way to help all of you. Shoto and I have not talked all day long. He made his decision ultimately based on what you all have done.
I am truly sorry to 90 percent of the members of Eden. I wish you all well. I wish you no ill will and will help you with anything you need. Just ask.
~Andri
(To all you who are new to this, this post here is response to the at last i saw seven pages of bile and lies posted by Knyghtmayre in the members-only HNM section).
Mertron, we may not see eye-to-eye on a lot of things, including Limbus (which i will go into great detail below) but you will forever have my respect as one of the most upstanding and fair people I have met on this game. You may not even like me, but what you did today was one of the kindest things anyone has done for me.
To every other sackholder and Eudon included, if you stood by and watched this abuse, without stopping the abusers in the name of 'expressing an opinion' you are truly sick, sick people.
Scorsese said on Sunday that those who stay in WCW were like battered wives in an abusive relationship. He is wrong. THIS relationship has been the most abusive thing i can think of. I stayed in this shell forever thinking it would stop, that it could be repaired. When Max left and he kept telling me "come on, they won't change. It won't get better." Well I have to admit now, he is right.
I may never see a dalmatica in FFXI and I tell you it is worth it. Shoto is right, this isn't the real Eden. Eden died a long time ago. I loved this shell. I still love the memory of it. But this infestation of evil is not Eden.
You want to allow members to abuse each other openly? To call people whores? You want a sack who doesn't play the game but only comes back out of his delight in belittling people.
I paid for Knyghtmayre to play this game from February 2006 until December 2006 because i took pity on a 16-year-old kid who couldnt get a credit card and whose only source of real entertainment came from this game. During that time I withstood harassment on the LS from him often. In April of 2006, I told him to remove his account from my credit card. He did not do so. I should be more careful with my finances, but for a long time I did not realize he had kept his account on my card. In November, when I thought Knyghtmayre was at his height of being the juvenile prick he is to me and my friends on the LS, I called SE and told them to cancel the account subscription. Nothing would happen to his account, just he would have to re-subscribe. Little did I know SE offers some weird resubscribe button when this happens and Kny just merrily clicked to resubscribe and have me continue to pay for his account, without talking to me or asking me. I then called and cancelled my credit card so there was no way he could do it again. He was gone for a while but has now conned Safer into paying for him.
To all the people in the shell, I didn't get to know or won't be able to help get your gear, I am very very sorry you had to witness this. I am especially sorry to Risbyn and Bodycount, to Maelicia and Sukasaroth, to Jheeb and Keli. Several new people seemed very nice and I know with my play times or the projects that i was busy with that I may have seemed standoffish, that is regrettable. I am not worried about the opinions of those who know the real me.
But I have several points to make:
1) The thing is Knyghtmayre would actually have to come to KV or a 5 am Cerb or an 8 am Fafnir to see me there. Mert knows I am there, Juvant knows I am there. Take a look down the HNM section. Find the 14-man fafnir.. the 12-man cerb screenshots, look at the party list. And yes, I was at EVERY KV but one.
2) I don't care if I ever get a cerb mantle. Yeah it's on my list, jesus, people put down Ninurta sashes... But I go to Cerb because I am a good god-damn stunner and I do my job well. I don't make excuses about lag, or my connection. I get the damn job done. I even claimed Cerb on Ony for this linkshell not giving a fuck who gets the mantle. The only time I ever questioned who might get a hide was when I saw a brand new member, maybe a week in the shell lot the hide off a kill. I asked Mert, "is he supposed to get that?" And the answer was, yes. Cool.
3) I logged off right after the aspid the other day AND today because I had and extreme amount of work backing up and simply could not stay online longer. You all know i am PST... It is not easy for me to make time out of the day to get online and play. I apologize if it appeared I did not care or did not want to help with another mob, but I need a paycheck, because I, Knyghtmayre, pay my own bills.
4) I wanted an altruistic cape. I can only attend sea on Saturdays, which I did EVERY Saturday, even when Turtle might've popped as I did last Saturday. You do the math on the likelihood that we would farm IxDark on a Saturday, the likelihood that it would pop and the likelihood that it would drop a vice AND THEN the likelihood I would be able to lot high enough to get it. So yes, I camped it on my own time with some friends. The bonus is EDEN WOULD GET ALL THE DEEDS AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MY CAPE!! Give your next cape to the person you want to have it. Seriously only in the land of Eden paranoia would farming your own fucking items and NOT leeching off the LS be considered damaging to the shell.
5) MERT - I'm not sure where you get this idea that I or others think your limbus is poorly run, unless it's from some comment someone said 6 months ago. People have different opinions on how best to get things done. I figure you guys want to do your limbus your way. You have different priorities. We have not at this time attempted Ultima and have very little desire to do so, therefore we are able to get by with far fewer people. Sometimes we don't understand why you take 15 people into an apollyon zone. I don't know, I figure you have your reasons. Run your limbus how you want.
6) The MAIN reason we had a separate limbus is BECAUSE I AM PACIFIC TIME. In general you go in before I get home on Tuesdays. It is very difficult as I mentioned above for me to attend and I think it is unfair to say to someone "oh well only come half time, but we will dock you because you aren't here all the time." So that, combined with the "we are full, go farm on your own" statements that were made as Mert correctly pointed out, we went on our own and farmed. Why are you bitching at me about coming to a fucking limbus I can't even attend half of the time?? Likewise, many of the members who have come to our limbus have said they are not able to make yours, for whatever reason. I don't know if they are telling the truth or not, that's up to them.
7) When the original rub of limbus came up, Maximilianbob suggested that Eden not go in runs of 18 and that the shell do small farming groups. That idea was turned down by LS leaders at the time. Max had fundamental differences of opinion with a few LS leaders and opted to leave. My limbus shell does very, very small runs built in a large part on Max's ideas. Last Wednesday, we farmed 2 zones with 10 people and collected 103 coins and 2 Omega chips. I am sure Eden can do the same.

9) Now why would Darkdreamer or myself even be lotting homam? Here is the reason: My small limbus cannot bully or guilt mages or anyone else to come to limbus. We cannot rely on "you have to." We have to rely on setting up a system in which they WANT to come to limbus, because it benefits them. So we came up with a plan in which you could EARN homam lotting rights, regardless of job, based on your level of contribution to the shell AND if you weren't interested in homam at all, we offer "a coin bonus" as an incentive to come. I don't care if you waltz into my shell tomorrow with DRK/DRG/THF/PLD all at 75 ... YOU EARN YOUR SHIT ... NOBODY works harder for that limbus shell than me. I have passed legs twice and body once because, yes, it is much more beneficial for those who can wear it to have it.
10) I do not hesitate to say that I beleive all the Eden members who have jobs that can wear homam right now in our shell are happy; happy with our rules because you know EXACTLY where you stand. I tell them constantly, if they are unhappy with the rules and want to go to another limbus, if they want to go with Eden, please go. I will never allow anyone to talk bad about them. To me, which limbus they attend is a personal choice about what they feel best fits them. I can't guilt them. I can't tell them they can't leave. They CHOOSE to stay. So if our EDEN members are happy... Why are you all pissed off? You're mad because I have a homam head? You must waste those every time you do an Omega.
11) NO other LS: Cog, LP, ED has only one Limbus shell or only on Salvage shell and then bitches at each other FOR GETTING GEAR FOR PEOPLE IN THE SAME DAMN SHELL. This whole discussion is retarded. ED has 2 groups and of course their members can go with outside groups. LP has 2 groups and 3 or 4 members who run their own shells. COG has at least one group but some of its members go with random other shells.
12) Why is it that you always bitched about me and Shoto in limbus? Keli and MrDude have a separate limbus linkshell they run. Why aren't you screaming and stomping about them? Ghil as well is long known as having his own limbus shell. Their shells give homam to people NOT EVEN IN EDEN!!! I work my ass off so people IN EDEN can have homam all the while passing gear I have earned far more than any one else and I am still called a bitch? I am called a whore? I am still treated to this behavior by a 16-year-old. Fuck you.
13) To the allegation that I stopped camping Tiamat when Tet got his gaiters: I have camped more gaiters for people in this shell than you, Knyghtmayre. I still have my mule stationed there and frankly only Mert, Shoto and DragonKeeper have been seen in chasm camping since Tet got his gaiters. If you think I had some great personal investment in getting Tet gaiters, you are crazy. I really, personally, could care less if Tet runs faster or not. But we do these things: camp kings, camp wyrms for the shell, REGARDLESS of favoritism ... or at least SOME of us did.
14) I would have LOVED to come to your salvage but I am an outcast, someone to be spit on by knyghtmayre and talked down to by Aemora. I asked on forums for access or a place to sign up but was told 'just show up'... then you held these things during WCW or at 3 PM PACIFIC. I am sorry, I cannot attend then. I get home to see 18 people in Bhaflau Remnants, but yet I am a bitch because I can't attend.
I guess it matters not now. I am sorry I don't have the class that Shoto has anymore to turn my cheek. The thing is, his resignation is heart-breaking to me. If only any of you... Eudon, Mira, Mertron, Juvant... knew how much Shoto loved this shell. He went out of his way to help all of you. Shoto and I have not talked all day long. He made his decision ultimately based on what you all have done.
I am truly sorry to 90 percent of the members of Eden. I wish you all well. I wish you no ill will and will help you with anything you need. Just ask.
~Andri