i hope yall will understand by the time your done reading this. ill just start from the beginning. i use to love playing ffxi.. it was a great way to avoid my friends that are a bad influence. also help me escape my irl problems without having to use drugs or alcohol. i could actually sleep again at night. eventually i let ffxi become an addiction though... i lost all my irl friends, i stopped talking for 2years, and etc. only people i would talk to was my irl ex bf (the love of my life Matt..that broke my heart so now i dont date.) and ffxi friends. After losing both.. every time i get on ffxi. i cant help but cry. every piece of gear i look at reminds me of him or old friends. For a year now.. ive thought about quitting but couldnt leave my new friends (Eden
). but i cant do it any more. ive lost so much from this game.. it only makes me emo too. i got kicked out from my moms place in cali so i moved in with my dad in idaho.it was either i go or moms bf go.. so i had to go .i have nothing now.. only thing i have is a 2nd chance to make my shitty life into a good one. ive been depressed since i was 10 years old.. ive been threw a lot.i want to have a normal teenager life, get my degree in RN then later go back to school to become a doctor, start a family.i have many goals. every time i play ffxi i feel like ill never reach any of these goals. i even started getting nightmares again. i hope yall understand. please keep in touch.. i cant lose any more friends. im very caring.. i care about all of you. msn: ladyracer3@hotmail.com
aim: colzpeepz
facebook: colleen peoples
text: 510-491-5744
www.myspace.com/colzpeepz
PS
NO- im not giving you my stuff. gwenoth (my sister) gave me account after she quit.. then i made dispell. so im giving it back to her.
NO- cant change my mind about quitting. ive thought about this for over a year. it wont be something ill regret.
