Ok so.. I know i've been gone for awhile popping in here and there for a day or two.. I just wanted to clear some things up before I'm hated by some of my most favorite people and linkshell in the game.
First off, RL is fucking hell right now. So i've decided to fill you all in with a list of events as follows:
1. Girlfriend moves out due to the fact i'm an asshole....
2. Depression kicks in blah blah blah(yeah I really had a thing for her that whole love thing with the possible marriage involved an what not)
3. More mistakes made during the overtime trying to fix our relationship only making things worse then come to find out.. Were having a child.
4. Car gets fixed.. (This was a good thing)
5. She was with another guy who she had already planned to marry and he was trying to take and make his own... So we settled she left him an we were in the process of working things out for the baby and our own relationship.
6. Things were back to normal we were back together I was taking care of her and.. Car explodes. Yes, literally flames from the engine.. explodes.... No more taking care of her.. Out the window..
7. So once again she left me seeing as i hadn't changed yada yada blah blah..
8. Rush to get new truck ending up with a 14,500 truck(Good thing)
9. Get in a wreck 4 days after i have the truck practically annihilating a motorcycle(My fault)
10. Things have settled still currently working on the relationship and the baby situation while working 39.5 hours a week while going to school which practically is how my day goes Wake up, Go to school, Go home, Get ready for work immediatly, Go to work, Get home, Sleep, Repeat.
I'm not looking for sympathy honestly I have no need to drag any of you into all this thats not my intentions. I just feel extremely bad being that I've recieved so many things an have barely done anything to repay Eden an those who have helped me especially in Eden. If there is anything i can possible return to Eden I would gladly do so.. I attempt to get on at least 3-4 times a month now... Yeah not alot but its better then not at all and when I do get on I try not to bother anyone in the shell or anything.. I feel i've lost my place in Eden. Any requests or anything for some sort of payment back to Eden I will try my best to do so.. I am sorry and I only wish I could of helped more and not drifted away. I just hope that the members that do know me heh, D: seems theres quite a few new ones, don't hate me or have anything against me.
Sorry guys