Sorry to hear about the seizure/shoulder dislocations =( what were you doing when it happened/are you ok otherwise? How long is it looking to be for rehab?
That's pretty cool that you got that kind of exposure; I went to a Eastern Catholic gradeschool/highschool and really never heard anything about other religions in that time. Although, I do remember when I was young my parents would buy my brother and I any books we wanted pretty much, and I remembering choosing a few books on Buddhism in ~7th/8th grade but never read through them too much at the time. What did you think when you read through them? Anything in particular that really made you think/stood out to you?
I think the Upanishads was a great one to start out with for me because it doesn't really involve a deity which doesn't give it the feeling of a whole different religion but rather just a really interesting collection of observations/stories. The Gita was more difficult to read in that regard because where the Upanishads might have used 'self', it uses Krishna. However, one aspect the Gita speaks strongly to me is in terms of work -- the most difficult part being grasping/applying the idea of working without a attachment to results. As a personal example, I'll use my experience in med school so far. Everything at this point is very focused on exam performance, board scores, and such, and it feels especially challenging to apply this concept. Here's a quote on what I'm referring to:
"You have the right to work, but never to the fruit of work. You should never engage in action for the sake of reward, nor should you long for inaction. Perform work in this world, Arjuna, as a man established within himself - without selfish attachments, and alike in success and defeat"
So let's say I do try my best to apply this in studying for a particular exam, and end up with a great score. First, to stop and to observe how I feel (or, to observe the inevitable 'ego response') in 'like' (doing well on the exam) and trying to even the mind to the same as I would feel in 'dislike' (if I did poorly) is difficult. Then afterwards, how to avoid any expecations of results - whether grades, or the feeling of receiving a good score - if I attempt to approach studying the same way for the next exam, is equally challenging. Even further, applying this to my own practice of meditation I've seen how it's easy to approach it expecting a result of peace, focus, etc. afterwards, but going in with expectation actually undermines the entire process. [I read Easwaran's translation of both the Upanishads and the Bhagavad Gita]
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